28 August 2016: Prayers for the week
For the past 2 weeks, I've been going through the motions. But not particularly well.
Nothing new has happened. My days are still defined by being overworked, my body underfed, and my spirit overtly desperate. It pretty much manifests itself in despair.
I don't really know how to explain it, and, to be honest, I'm not really sure it matters. I feel like I've been explaining at His feet for a while, so I cannot reason any other conclusion besides the idea that it must mean I don't matter.
Sociologists argue man is made up of his relationships: with himself, God, others, creation... you get the picture.
Presently, my relationship with God is trash. I authored a particularly blunt narrative about why I can't do church right now.
When it comes to how I see myself: trash. I sent a nice frank email to my team about that as well.
And then there's how I relate to others. Not sure how to describe that one. Many have voiced their concerns and listened. I think they've stepped away just as overwhelmed as me.
So what do we pray for? Hope? Change? A revitalized spirit? Healing?
Honestly, your guess is as good as mine.