It seems there is a little good witch inside.
She is fiercely woman.
She does not have pride.
She does not play God.Read More
In those moments, I have decided my emotions are too great for me, that I have a feeble frame, that I am tired of searching, and that I am restless restless restless for what seems to be no logical cause.Read More
It’s true: There are scams in mental healthcare, ethics code violations, and practitioners operating outside their knowledge scope of care - just like every other business field. To ensure you’ve partnered with the right person, consider what their licensure letters mean ahead of time to better understand legal practice guidelines. It can seem like an overwhelming step, so I’ve synthesized the mandatory TN and Federal practice guidelines, carefully outlining each title’s strengths, limits, and non-negotiables.Read More
But for the first time, not talking is a choice: an option among options with equally guaranteed safety, inner-fulfillment, and contentment. Not talking is, for the first time, not a result of forced, coerced silence as a hustling mechanism for basic met needs. The choice to be quiet is a privilege because it means you had the chance to speak, and you had that chance either because you pushed yourself forward to demand being heard or you were already well enough to be in the spotlight.Read More
If my life were a novel, and I had to give that novel a title, it’d be: My Therapist is Crazy, except it wouldn’t actually be funny, because the joke’s on me.
I say that not because I’ve necessarily done anything wrong, but because I struggle significantly with the lie that mental health illness is a choice, and therefore its cure is in making better decisions. Just typing those words incites a cringing within my body that I can hardly tolerate.
It’s been about a year now since I’ve returned from full-time, but it feels like just yesterday, and it feels like I dreamt far more in the way of personal achievements than mine presently. There is nothing true about this, because my clinicians and I intentionally did not materialize recovery into socially constructed adulthood milestones. At the same time, my desiring those milestones also leads me to question whether I’m “grown up enough” for my age.Read More
Today's "Morning Edition" broadcast included Peter Overby's "Why Trump Appointees Refer To 'Optics' When Discussing Spending Scandals," which contextualized the Trump Administrations poor acknowledgement and ownership of scandals with an overall communication trend to apologize for another's reaction to poor conduct rather than take responsibility for that poor conduct and commit to active, long-term change as a true demonstration of reconciliation. I immediately thought of my recent decisions to separate from unhealthy relationships that do not bring life and my adopting an insecurity around those decisions.
I am thankful for NPR programming as its writing practices contextualize so well that its consumers can explicitly notice the report's relevance to what valid emotions and experiences they feel, especially for those like me who grieve very deeply when we continually see a poor character in our national leaders. It gives hope that there are still high standards for humanity and our expectation for common dignity.Read More
I looked at your message again.
I feel shame because her withholding abundance is a way to cultivate dependence rather than encourage independence. It is not at all the same thing: Dependence is bondage, independence is freedom. I will receive money if compliant to be one with herRead More
I talk to friend today, and we celebrate what it is like to be well: What it is like to have been putting one piece here, one piece there, another in the center, one in the far back and a few others tucked away for safe keeping.
We celebrate what it is like to have stepped forth steps kin to excellent campfire mound stick construction, and we smile from polar ends of Memphis in matched expectation. This is a rare feeling we have. The feeling called, “Things are working.”Read More
I forget sometimes how hard I hustled to reach where I am now.
And because I have forgotten, and also forgotten the concentrated time period and twenty-four-seven hour person presence support, I attribute my “lack of progress” to personal failure.
But good things happening does not measure progress. That's how I refocused this week.Read More