I feel 190lbs Strong

25 is a big deal. Here's why.

I hate special occasions. Holidays are symbols of struggle that bring difficult, vivid memories back to mind. Tomorrow, I continue to reshape bitter memories in hopes I never spend another holiday in inpatient. It won't be any easier. At All. But the work comes more naturally now that my identity is grounded in Truth.



Fear of the dark, hyper vigilance, detached and dissociative spells, catastrophizing, irrationality, PTSD, suicidality, impulsivity, victimhood, numbness, secrets, sidelines, debilitating migraines and upper body pain. Perfectionism, poor ADL's, fear foods, liver ALT's, worthlessness, skipping meals, night terrors, hair loss, IBS symptoms, crying spells, anger fits, high blood pressure, orthostatic hypotension, TMJ jaw pain and chest pain.



Mindfulness, freedom, holistic wellness, sociocultural intelligence, authenticity, weight restoration, kidney functioning, self-acceptance, clear communication, cognitive reframing, forgiveness, value-driven behavior, self-awareness, self-accountability and interpersonal relationship trust.



Irregular body temperature, dehydration, dry and patchy skin, excessive thirst, vitamin deficiencies, bruising easily, tougher concentration, cyclical infection, body aches and pains, sleeping inconsistencies, orphaned thinking, impulsivity, self-doubt, word finding, memory making, storing and retrieval, processing speeds and GI inconsistencies.


PREVIOUSLY IN CARE (not consecutively): Veteran's Day, Presidential Election, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Hanukkah, Christmas Eve, Christmas, New Year's, MLK Day, Presidential Inauguration, Super Bowl, Valentine's Day, President's Day, Mother's Day, My Birthday, Father's Day, Memorial Day, 4th of July, Family_Friend Birthdays, Weddings, Childbirths & too many sweet, seasonal vacations.

Kendall Crouther